Tuesday, January 7, 2020

Mental Health Tip of the Week

4 Untruths to Avoid Telling Your Therapist
It's natural to hide things from your therapist, but to what end?
By: Jean Kim M.D

In a previous post, I discussed the natural difficulty in opening to another person about sensitive and difficult topics in one's life, and the importance of doing so in order to begin the process of healing and growth in therapy. Here I discuss the challenging, but more than understandable ways people avoid telling the truth to their therapists, given the anxiety and fear that often surrounds confrontation of painful truths. The point here is not to judge or blame people for turning to these types of avoidance and defense, but to gently highlight ways in which we do so in order to protect ourselves that may sometimes be counterproductive to progress in therapy.

Untruths to Avoid

Everything Is Fine." Minimization is a common way that patients avoid painful topics and detach from intolerable feelings. Sometimes these coping mechanisms veer into frank dissociation, where a horrific trauma elicits a person escaping into amnesia. The key is to maintain a sense of safety and gradually follow the crumbs of one’s story towards the fragmented remnants of a painful memory. Only then can the pieces be put back together to move past them.

Exaggerating Events. 

While it’s probably more common to minimize or hide significant events from your therapist, there are occasions where some people cope with anxiety by veering off into distraction narratives. But a step beyond that understandable defense mechanism is frank exaggeration of past stories, not unlike a squid spraying ink to hide their true whereabouts or destination. In extreme and rare cases, people may turn to a phenomenon called pseudologica fantastica, a form of pathological lying and compulsive exaggeration. These tall tales are often not consciously intentional and are driven by intense fear of underlying anger or emotion connected to past traumas. A skilled therapist will be able to sift past the “ink” and uncover the pain lurking beneath; but it will take more time in such cases.

Crying Wolf. 

A variant of telling dramatically heightened versions of real-life events, these behaviors involve getting a rise out of the therapist to provoke a sense of concern that the patient may have never received due to neglect, or received too often in the form of abusive attention that is compulsively sought. Sometimes it can be expressing dangerous thoughts or self-injury, or physical problems that have no medical basis. It is crucial to take all such thoughts at face value first, but after everything else is ruled out and certain patterns of behavior become apparent, it will take time to address the real underlying feelings of hurt and terror that cause these behaviors to happen.

Hidden Medications and Substance Abuse.

 It’s important to be open to your therapist about all active conditions ongoing, especially any medical issues and any alcohol or drug use. Psychiatrists may need to prescribe medications that can react poorly with unreported issues like other medications or ongoing alcohol or drugs. Other times symptoms may mainly be resulting from primary use of illicit substances. There are a host of targeted treatments for substance use disorder that can better target those issues and give a patient their best chance of feeling better.

Overall, the relationship between a therapist and a patient is a unique space, designed to explore difficult and painful issues in order to help a patient heal and move past them. Trust is of the essence for both parties, as is a dedication to moving forward in a comfortable, safe, tolerant manner. There is no need to be judgmental or punitive about the defenses and roadblocks that may crop up in the nuanced mission of approaching trauma or life stressors; these protections, even if they become maladaptive, are understandable responses to pain, suffering, and fear. The key is to recognize them as they occur, and to make a mutual commitment to continue towards a healing path.

Wednesday, December 11, 2019

Target Expands Aira Use

original article found here: https://www.supermarketnews.com/issues-trends/target-expands-aira-service-blind-and-low-vision-customers
Minneapolis-based Target Corp. has expanded a pilot program to 600 stores to offer a free service called Aira for those customers who are blind or have limited vision.
Aira connects blind and low-vision guests with trained agents who act as visual interpreters. Following a successful pilot that began last year, Target launched the service to the additional 600 stores across the U.S. in November.
According to Target, the partnership with Aira allows it “to make a real difference in blind and low-vision guests’ shopping experience, but it’s also building on Target’s journey to create a deep foundation of accessibility.”
The project was developed by Target’s accessibility team, including lead consultant Steve Decker — who’s blind himself — and others at the retailer’s headquarters in the U.S. and India. The team members couple their diverse backgrounds along with their own experiences with disabilities to champion accessibility in Target stores and online
Each day, I have an incredible opportunity to help make Target even more welcoming and inclusive,” said Decker. “I get to turn my personal experiences into solutions that not only make daily tasks easier, but bring a little extra everyday joy to even more guests, no matter how they shop.”
Aira services are now available at Target stores in 13 major markets, including Minneapolis-St. Paul, New York, Los Angeles, Dallas, Philadelphia, Boston, Seattle, Houston, Denver, Baltimore, Austin, Washington D.C. and the San Francisco-Bay Area. Once in an Aira-enabled store, guests can use their smartphone or Aira smart glasses to access the app. Aira is available free of charge as long as guests are in the store, with no limit on call time. 
Customers can download the Aira app at aira.io/app and complete a brief registration. They can then select “Call Using a Free Offer” to access a list of nearby Aira access locations.

Monday, December 9, 2019

Mental Health Tip of the Week

25 Ways to Find Joy and Balance During the Holidays

Feeling down during the holidays can be tough, especially, if you find yourself feeling so out of step with the world while everyone else around you seems to be beaming, full of energy and bursting with holiday spirit. Well, you’re not alone. The next time you find yourself in a room of what appears to be cheerful individuals at a holiday party, chances are,  many of them may be feeling the same as you.  In fact, according to a study done by Dr. Ken Duckworth, MD, medical director of the National Alliance on Mental Illness, the holidays can be the worst time of the year, and not just for those who suffer from clinical depression. So, if you are one of the individuals who finds themselves experiencing bouts of depression or sadness during the holiday season here are 25 tips that can help lift your spirits and provide you the ability to enjoy this festive season along with everyone else.

Finding the Holiday Spirit: Emotions
1.Keep your expectations modest. Don’t get hung up on what the holidays are supposed to be like and how you’re supposed to feel. If you’re comparing your holidays to some abstract greeting card ideal or a Hallmark holiday movie, they’ll always come up short. So, don’t worry about holiday spirit and take the holidays as they come.
2.Do something different. This year, does the prospect of the usual routine fill you with holiday dread rather than holiday joy?  If so, don’t surrender to it. Try something different. Have Thanksgiving at a restaurant. Spend Christmas day at the movie theater. Get your family to agree to skip gift giving and instead donate the money to a charity. Change is good and can provide therapeutic benefit.
3.Lean on your support system. If you’ve been depressed, you need a network of close friends and family to turn to when things get tough. During the holidays, take time to get together with your support system regularly, or at least keep in touch by phone to keep yourself centered.
4. Don’t assume the worst. “I think some people go into the holidays with expectations so low that it makes them more depressed, so don’t start the holiday season anticipating disaster. If you try to take the holidays as they come and limit your expectations, you may find that they are actually more enjoyable.
5. Forget the unimportant stuff. Don’t run yourself ragged just to live up to holiday tradition. What if you don’t get the lights on the roof this year? What if you don’t get the special Christmas mugs from the crawl space? Give yourself a break. Worrying about such trivial stuff will not add to your holiday spirit.
6. Volunteer. Sure, you may feel stressed out and booked up already. Consider taking time to help people who have less than you. Try volunteering at a soup kitchen or working with a toy drive. “You could really find a since of comfort knowing you’re making a small dent in the lives of people who have so little.”
Finding the Holiday Spirit: Family
7. Head off problems. Think about what people or situations trigger your holiday stress and figure out ways to avoid them. If seeing your uncle stresses you out, skip his New Year’s party and just stop by for a quick hello on New Year’s Day. Instead of staying in your bleak, childhood bedroom at your parents house, check into a nearby hotel. You really have more control than you think.
8. Ask for help, but be specific. See if your spouse will lug out the decorations. Ask your sister to help you cook, or host the holiday dinner itself. Invite a friend along on shopping trips. People may be more willing to help out than you expect; they just need some guidance from you on what to do.
9. Don’t worry about things beyond your control. So, your uncle and your dad get into an argument over who will carve the turkey every holiday dinner and it makes you miserable. Remember your limits. You can’t control them, but you can control your own reaction to the situation.
10. Make new family traditions. People often feel compelled to keep family holiday traditions alive long past the point that anyone’s actually enjoying them. Don’t keep them going for their own sake, start a new holiday tradition instead  Create one that’s more meaningful to you personally.
11. Find positive ways to remember loved ones. Holidays may remind you of the loved ones who aren’t around anymore.  Instead of feeling glum, do something active to celebrate their memory. For instance, go out with the family to your mom’s favorite restaurant and give her a toast. It will keep her memory alive and provide you with comfort.
Finding the Holiday Spirit: Parties
12. Don’t overbook. People need to pace themselves or they’ll get overwhelmed. Don’t feel you have to say yes to every invitation you receive. Think about which parties you can fit in, and which ones you really want to attend.
13. Don’t stay longer than you want. Going to a party doesn’t obligate you to stay until the bitter end. Instead, just drop by for a few minutes, say hello, and explain you have other engagements. The hosts will understand that it’s a busy time of year and appreciate your effort. Knowing you have a plan to leave can really ease your anxiety.
14. Have a partner for the party. If the prospect of an office party is causing holiday stress, talk to a friend and arrange to arrive and leave together. You may feel much better knowing you have an ally and a plan of escape.
Finding the Holiday Spirit: Shopping
15. Forget about the perfect gift. If you’re already feeling overwhelmed, now is not the time to fret about finding the absolute best gift ever for your best friend or significant other. Remember: everybody likes a gift certificate.
16. Shop online. Save yourself the inconvenience, the crowds, and the horrors of the mall parking lot by doing the bulk of your shopping online.
17. Stick to a budget. The cost of holiday shopping mounts quickly and can make people feel out of control and anxious. Draw up a budget long before you actually start your shopping and stick to it.
Finding the Holiday Spirit: Self-Care
18. Stay on schedule. As much as you possibly can, try to stick with your normal routine during the holidays. Don’t stay too late at parties. Don’t pull an all-nighter wrapping presents. Disrupting your schedule and losing out on sleep can make your mood deteriorate.
19. Exercise. While you may not feel like you have the time to exercise during the holidays, the benefits are worth it. Research shows that exercise has a strong anti-anxiety, anti-depression effect. You can work physical activity into your errands. When you’re shopping, take a few extra laps around the mall. Walk your Christmas cards to the post office instead of driving.
20. Eat sensibly. When you’re facing a dozen holiday parties and family gatherings between now and New Year’s, it’s hard to stay committed to a sensible diet. But try. Eating healthy may keep you feeling better both physically and emotionally. On the other hand, don’t beat yourself up if you go overboard on the cookie platter in the break room. It’s not a big deal. Just get back on track the next day.
21. Don’t rely on holiday spirits (or other substances.) The holidays are often a time of heavy drinking. It’s a common strategy for getting over anxiety about holiday parties or having the boss as your Secret Santa.” Remember that alcohol is itself a depressant and abusing it will leave you feeling worse. It also may not be safe for people taking antidepressant medication or other psychotropics.
22. Try a sun lamp. As the daylight grows shorter, lots of people find their mood gets gloomier. While some have diagnosed Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), those who don’t may still have a seasonal aspect to their depression. Talk to your doctor about trying a sun lamp. It could improve your mood.
23. If you take medication, don’t miss doses. In the hustle of the holidays, it’s easy to slack off and miss medication.  Don’t let that happen. Make sure that you’re up-to-date on your refills, too.
24. If you see a therapist, have extra meetings. To stay grounded, plan ahead and schedule some extra sessions during the holiday season. You could also ask about the possibility of doing quick phone check-ins.
25. Give yourself a break. The holidays can make some people dwell on their imperfections, their mistakes, the things they’re not proud of.  Try to cut yourself some slack. “This is not an easy time of year for a lot of people. Be gentle with yourself. It is the season of kindness and forgiveness, after all. Save some of it for yourself

Friday, December 6, 2019

Blind Hockey Player finds Hope

An athlete who lost his sight due to Retinitis Pigmentosa gained a new sense of purpose when he joined the National Blind Hockey team. Read on to hear his inspiring story!

original article found here

Charlie Mitchell first noticed something was happening to his vision during his freshman year of high school.
An athlete since he was a kid, Charlie started to find sports a little harder, whether he was playing golf, baseball or hockey. He could hardly see the golf ball and, in the outfield, pop flies might as well have been surprise attacks from dive bombers.
At the time, Charlie didn’t think it was a big deal.
“I never thought enough of it to get it checked out at that point,” Charlie said.
Charlie is now legally blind – his vision having deteriorated as a result of a genetic condition known as Retinitis pigmentosa – but his career as an athlete has never been better. As of this year, Charlie is one of six new players to join the USA National Blind Hockey Team.
For the first time in years, Charlie and his wife Katie Mitchell have something they thought was lost: hope.
“It was just really helpful to snap me out of that negative mindset and to start questioning what my boundaries are with the visual impairment and just assuming that I can’t do things,” Charlie said.
Originally from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, Charlie moved to Indiana to attend the University of Notre Dame, where he met Katie freshman year. After his time at Notre Dame, Charlie went to law school at George Washington University in D.C. from 2012 to 2015. The couple now live in Potomac Yard with their two daughters.
It was in 2012 that he really started to struggle, Charlie said.
“It was actually my first year of law school that I started having a really hard time, especially at night,” Charlie said. “It got to the point where I just couldn’t drive at night.”
Charlie got pulled over one night while driving. Around the same time, Katie said she started to notice other warning signs.
The couple knew things were serious after a friendly racquetball competition turned frightening.
“One night we were playing racquetball, and I’m pretty competitive. I was destroying him, and he was like, ‘Katie, I can’t see the ball’ and I was like, ‘Yeah right,’” Katie said. “I went to toss him the ball … and I threw it just an inch to the left and he didn’t even flinch.”
Katie took Charlie to the emergency room, fearing his vision loss was due to a brain tumor or something life threatening, Katie said. The couple quickly realized that wasn’t the case and began seeing eye doctors.
Eventually, Charlie went to a specialist at Johns Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore, who dropped the news at Charlie’s feet: He had a degenerative genetic condition.
“After he worked me up and they did all kinds of crazy tests, he’s like, ‘I think you have a genetic disease and you’re going to progressively lose your vision,’” Charlie said. “And he just kind of dropped it on me without any preparation, and I was kind of in shock for the rest of the day.”
Charlie had a million questions, he said. Was he going to be able to continue his work at the law firm? How fast would he lose his vision?
Charlie’s vision had already started progressively fading. He stopped driving in 2013 and started taking the Metro, but blind spots and decreasing detailed vision made even that difficult. Going through Metro stations, Charlie would constantly bump into people, he said.
In the years after his diagnosis, Charlie struggled to adapt to his condition and a new way of life. He started to recede into himself, he said, pulling away from Katie and his coworkers at the law firm. He started to tell himself certain things were just too difficult, Charlie said.
“We have a happy hour every month and I just stopped going because I didn’t feel comfortable,” Charlie said. “‘I’m gonna go in there and I’m not gonna recognize anyone and I’m gonna be making a fool out of myself.’ I was in that kind of negative mindset.”
“More and more he kind of faded away and was throwing himself into his work and making that his thing. We call them the Dark Days,” Katie said. “… We’d go out and he’d kind of get frustrated or he wouldn’t even tell me he was frustrated. But it was clear that he wasn’t enjoying what we were doing.”
Eventually, Charlie’s vision deteriorated to the point where he had to turn to others for help. He started working with the Virginia Department for the Blind and Vision Impaired and, in April, went down to Richmond for a three month-long training session where he learned how to use assistive technology, text to speech software and a white cane.
Charlie started reaching out to other attorneys in the DMV with visual impairments to learn how they adapted, he said.
Then, in December 2018, Charlie learned of a blind hockey team in Arlington through a coworker, and everything changed, he said.
“People hear blind hockey and they think it’s crazy and I kind of thought the same thing, but she connected me with the team, and I went out and gave it a try,” Charlie said. “… I’ve been hooked on it ever since.”
Having played hockey up until college, it took time for Charlie to adjust to playing the sport in a new way.
In blind hockey, everything from the equipment to the rules have been adjusted to meet the conditions of those with visual impairments. The net is a foot shorter, in order to even the playing field for goalies, who are, by the rules, totally blind. The puck is larger and full of ball bearings so that players can track it by sound.
“One of the biggest adaptations for me is just developing the ability to track the puck audibly rather than visually,” Charlie said. “It took me several months before I could hear the puck sliding and be able to pick it up on my stick without missing it or skating past it.”
The most major rule difference is that when an offensive player enters the offensive zone on the other team’s side, they have to complete at least one pass before taking a shot.
“The ref carries a sound device in his hand and when that pass is completed from offensive player to offensive player in the offensive zone, they will sound the buzzer so all players on the ice, including the goalie, know the pass was good and now it’s about to be coming,” Michael Svac, coach for the USA National Blind Hockey Team, said.
Between his involvement in local blind hockey teams and his time down in Richmond, Charlie’s morale is on the mend, along with his relationship with Katie.
“The three months away [in Richmond] and then blind hockey, I feel like I got my husband back this year,” Katie said. “It’s almost become a blessing in a way – not that I would wish this on anybody – but it’s given us this totally different perspective and made us really thankful for all the little things.”
Seeing Charlie padded up and back out on the ice still brings a tear to her eye, Katie said.
This year, Charlie’s time on the ice has given him something he never dreamed of, even when he was playing sighted hockey: a spot on the USA National Team.
While playing for the D.C. blind hockey team, Charlie travelled to Tampa, Florida in April for an annual disabled ice hockey festival, where he managed to secure a place in the preliminary tryouts for the national team.
In July, Charlie went to a training camp in Utica, New York, the hub of the national team, where the coaches selected the final team lineup. Charlie gave the team strategic and adaptive value, Svac said.
“Charlie gave us a unique ability because I was impressed at camp with his ability to play both offense and defense,” Svac said. “… He has tremendous speed when he gets control of the puck, so it allows him to, one, have a little more vision than others on defense and he also has the ability to be able to skate the puck up ice as opposed to just throwing the puck.”
Although blind hockey has a 40-year history in Canada, it is a relatively new para-sport in the U.S. The sport is growing, with teams in development or established in most major U.S. cities. The national blind hockey program is still limited in terms of resources and funding, but the end goal is to grow the game to the point where it joins the Paralympics in 2026, Svac said.
Just last year, Charlie thought he’d never play hockey again, and now he’s looking to head to the Paralympics. Where he once saw limitations, Charlie now sees possibilities, he said.
“The big difference is if something would have come along a year ago, my default position would have been to say, ‘I can’t do that because of my vision,’” Charlie said. “Now, I’m much more of the mindset of, ‘Yeah, I’ll give it a shot.’ I might have to do it a different way – I might have to figure things out – but I’m not just gonna assume I can’t do something because of my vision.”

Monday, November 18, 2019

Legally Blind Ex-Con Get a Second Change

Leonard Fantroy started losing his vision in prison. He was worried about what he would do when he got out of prison. He wanted to take care of his family but didn't know-how with his loss of eyesight.  What he decided to do once he got out changed his life for the better. Keep reading to find out more!

Original article from US News

DETROIT (AP) — When Leonard Fantroy began going blind in prison in November 2014, he initially thought the sharp pain in his eyes was a migraine.
Then he stepped outside and saw what looked like a thick fog enveloping the prison yard — but other inmates couldn't see it.
After a series of neurological tests, doctors confirmed what Fantroy feared, that he was losing his vision.
"I'm sitting there crying because I'm like, I got all these plans when I go home to take care of my family because I don't want to go home and sell dope," Fantroy recalled to the Detroit Free Press.
Transporting and selling drugs in Detroit had landed him in prison three times. Legally blind when he was released for the last time in 2016, Fantroy said he found a new determination to not return.
He started a landscaping company in 2018, rounding up a crew made up of his teenage sons and guys from his neighborhood on the city's northeast side, some of whom also had criminal convictions. He dreamed up the idea after a month of sleeping on the floor because he couldn't afford furniture for his rental home.
Fantroy, 41, manages the business with help from a small team of supporters. There's a longtime friend who handles his paperwork and contributes her own money toward lawn mowers and landscaping tools. There's a man he met in prison who's seeking out entrepreneurship training for Fantroy.
Running a small business for the first time brings its challenges. Fantroy has wrestled with broken-down equipment and been targeted by thieves. He's hasn't been able to get a loan because of his credit score.
He pushes forward with urgency.
"My vision is fading. Every day I lose. So I have to be in a hurry," he said.
Fantroy's vision is 20/200 in one eye and 20/400 in the other. He can see objects, but he can't discern details.
"One of my biggest obstacles is not being able to do what I want to do. Somebody's gotta drive me around. That's my plight," he said.
Fantroy has optic neuritis, a condition that causes his immune system to attack his optic nerves. It's a common symptom of multiple sclerosis, but he doesn't have MS and said doctors haven't been able to pinpoint the underlying cause.
He gets an infusion every six weeks that slows down the degeneration of his nerves, a treatment he began in prison.
When running his business, Leonard Fantroy's Lawn Service LLC, he stands back and lets his crew handle the residential and commercial jobs. He gets his hands dirty when the gigs don't call for precise attention to detail, like boarding up windows and clearing yards for the Detroit Land Bank Authority.
"I can run every piece of equipment except ride on lawnmowers," he said.
Fantroy relies on his friend Latasha Lockett to keep his paperwork straight. The two met in 2003 and were roommates for a time before they lost touch. They reconnected after Fantroy got out of prison.
She bought him his first lawnmower and started picking up tools for him here and there. Lockett hasn't kept track of how much money she's invested.
In all the years of their friendship, she said she hadn't seen Fantroy as happy as he was when he got his business license and bought his first snowblower.
"I got faith in him," said Lockett, who works in adult home help care. "I believe he's come a long way."
On a recent morning, Fantroy watched from a curb as a few of his employees packed debris into a trailer outside a vacant home that they were readying for the Land Bank. Fantroy mentally calculated how much additional money they could bring in if he could afford a few dump trailers.
He calls this his "drug dealer mind," referring to how he says he used to rake in thousands of dollars in a matter of days on the streets.
Now his earnings are much more modest.
"I can go get a pound of weed or a kilo of cocaine right now quicker than I can get a loan," he said.
But he won't, he says, because selling drugs again after scraping his business together wouldn't feel the same. And he wants to be around for his children.
The criminal justice reform organization Michigan Liberation is trying to connect Fantroy with entrepreneurship training and financial assistance. Earl Burton, a justice fellow with the group, met Fantroy in prison and cheers on his work ethic.
"He's not sitting back like, 'Oh, poor me. I'm losing my sight,' " Burton said. "He's like an inspiration to me. If he can do it, anybody ought to be able to."
Fantroy said his father taught him to count drug money at a young age.
His dad also taught him how to mow lawns.
"Now I appreciate the struggle. I love being broke," he said. "I love being who I am."
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Information from: Detroit Free Press, http://www.freep.com

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Tuesday, November 12, 2019

Cells Linked to Macular Degeneration


original article found on Science Daily

Age-related macular degeneration is one of the leading causes of blindness in the elderly, affecting more than 2 million people in the United States and leading to progressive loss of central vision. Genome wide studies have identified almost three dozen genes that play a role in the disease, but exactly where in the eye they inflict damage was not well known.
Researchers from Yale University, the Broad Institute of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, and Harvard University report in the Oct. 25 issue of the journal Nature Communications that glial cells (or support cells), and vasculature cells tasked with providing blood to the retina as well as cone cells contribute to degeneration of the macula, in the central part of the retina.
"This study helps pinpoint cell types that can be investigated closely to develop new types of therapeutics," said co-senior author Brian Hafler, assistant professor of ophthalmology and visual science and of pathology at Yale.
There are a limited number of effective long-term treatments available for the two forms of macular degeneration. The wet form is caused by growth of abnormal blood vessels underneath the macula, which can be mitigated by regular injections in the eye. Other than eye vitamin supplements, there is no treatment for the dry form of the disease, which is marked by accumulations of yellow deposits called drusen in the macula. While current treatments provide some benefits, over time there can be a continued, progressive loss of vision in both forms of the disease.
While genes associated with the risk of developing macular degeneration had been identified, the Yale/Harvard/MIT team used new single-cell sequencing to generate the first comprehensive human retinal atlas and employed data analysis technology to localize their effects to specific cell types associated with the disease.
While they found risk genes associated with cones, the cell type key to central vision, the researchers also found an association with glial and vascular cells -- providing possible targets for novel therapies to improve and restore vision.
Yale University. "Cells linked to leading cause of blindness in elderly." ScienceDaily. ScienceDaily, 25 October 2019. <www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/10/191025075923.htm>.

Monday, November 11, 2019

Mental Health Tip of the Week

To Heal from Trauma, You Have to Feel Your Feelings

Feeling your feelings is one of the healthiest things you can do
By: Andrea Brandt Ph.D. M.F.T

At any age, in any life stage, you can change. Whether you’re 77 years old or 17, you can learn, grow, adopt new habits, and make new choices to create a life you truly love. It may not always feel that way, though.
When childhood emotional wounds tether you to the past, it can feel like you’re being swept away by a fast-moving current; although there are branches on either side of the riverbank to grab onto, something is mentally blocking you from reaching out. That “something” is a tether point, an invisible string holding you back.

Your tether points originated with emotional injuries or traumas in childhood—experiences that were hurtful and damaging to your sense of self. The same event or experience will affect people differently. Schoolyard teasing that stays with one person for decades may be brushed off easily by someone else.

Genetics, previous events, mindset, and beliefs can all affect which childhood events stay with you and hold you back, and which you shrug off. The social support you received in the wake of the trauma, the trauma’s duration, and the type of injury it is also can affect the tether-creation process.

Trauma generates emotions, and unless you process these emotions at the time they occur, they can become stuck in your system, negatively affecting you both psychologically and physically. The healthy flow and processing of distressing emotions like anger, sadness, grief, and fear are essential. You will never resolve underlying issues if you deny and run from your feelings.

Suppressed emotions don’t just go away; instead, they become toxic. They will keep showing up in your life, in some form of dysfunction or unhappiness, until you resolve them. Throughout life, feeling your feelings is one of the healthiest and most productive things you can do.

To reach out for that metaphorical branch and pull yourself from the current, you have to find what it is in your inner world that is tethering you to your traumas, restricting your movements, and limiting your choices. You must make conscious what is unconscious so that you can free yourself from your past and grab onto the life you want by making new, more empowering choices.

To find your tether points, you don’t have to go through every experience you’ve ever had and dredge up old sorrows. Instead, look at what isn’t working well in your life right now. What situations make you feel extra emotional—hair-trigger anger, deep despair, shame? Are there times where you think you should have an emotional reaction, but you feel numb?

What do these feelings or lack of feelings tell you about yourself? The act of self-exploration and understanding will help you get to know yourself on a deeper level. It will help you to process and let go of any beliefs, memories, judgments, and regrets that are keeping you bound to the past and unable to fully engage with life in the present.

To free yourself from what is limiting you and unconsciously driving your actions, you need to observe yourself non-judgmentally. You need to bring your thoughts, feelings, and beliefs into conscious awareness. In doing so, you shift from using the fight-flight-or-freeze part of your brain to the less reactive and more analytical one, which can explore, discover, and create.

The qualities you’ll need in your self-observation spell the acronym "COAL":
Curiosity
Openness
Acceptance
Love
By using COAL, you create a psychologically safe space where you can let your guard down to reveal the sensations, emotions, and thoughts trapped inside. When you focus on your inner world, you are practicing emotional mindfulness. Self-awareness is fundamental to understanding and being happy with yourself, forming close relationships, and recognizing your motivations so that you can build your life based on what is true for you now, and not in response to past trauma.

You must feel your feelings; your emotions are helpful companions on the journey of life. You need to make friends with them, learn from them, and interact with them in a loving, not fearful, way.